I’ve had a strange assignment the past seven years. It was a tough one of going into the darkness and chaos of having my life fall apart on so many levels I didn’t recognize myself or my life anymore. My self-identity was battered and bruised. I went through a divorce. I found myself living somewhere that didn’t feel like home on any level.
I went through the collapse of the economy shortly after the collapse of my marriage. Other relationships no longer fit. I felt raw, angry, scared. As vulnerable as I felt, I couldn’t take any B.S. anymore. If something didn’t feel right, I said so and some people didn’t like it. OK, most people didn’t like it. I’m sorry.
I watched more things fall away. My two cats died. I made some bad investments. My health wavered. Fun times indeed. The two best relocation astrologers I could find told me I was living in the worst possibly place for me. They said get out now. I bought a house. I know. I’ve never been great at taking advice…even if I ask for it. Let’s just say I was a bit confused and disoriented. (I can laugh now..not then.)
I’ve been working with a client for several weeks now who is in an ambivalent marriage. One of the ways he deals with it is by having affairs. He saw a therapist prior to me who actually supported this behavior and saw it as a way to explore his feelings and help him decide if he wanted to stay in his marriage or not. Several years later, he’s still doing the same behavior and is as stuck as ever.
We all want to create changes in our lives. I listen to people’s dreams and desires all week long. Some of them are very inspiring and other’s not so much. I’m always curious what makes one person really want to go for their dreams and another simply want to maintain the status quo with perhaps a little tweak.
It seems like half the clients I spoke with last week told me how overwhelmed they are. When I asked what was going on I heard about sick friends dying, fear of job loss, relationship break-ups, divorce dramas and financial strain.
In last week’s blog I talked about three ways to reclaim your feminine power. This week, I want to expand upon that topic since I feel it is so important to the happiness and full expression of all women and to the healing of our masculine-dominant culture that has spun out-of-control and is in desperate need of balance, wholeness and integration.